Yesterday I had a sorta breakdown.
I cried on and off all day. Grieving about the inevitable.
My dog, Maggy, was diagnosed with cancer recently. She has a growth around her lymph node, which protrudes from her neck. and tongue that is inoperable.
We started chemotherapy a week ago yet yesterday I noticed her lump on her neck had grown, she had barely any energy to walk and she wouldn't yawn, meaning she was too uncomfortable to open her mouth.
Maggy is 14 and since my divorce 5 years ago she has grown to be my close buddy. She did almost everything with me. We hiked 3-4 days a week, we hung out at the park, we walked everyday and any vacation revolved around being able to take her. It's just her and I.
Needless to say this illness is stressful.
And yesterday hit me hard.
I have my Personal Core Values, which help me create a more simple life, to fall back on during good times and bad yet this day really took its toll on me. I also have my best friend and I journal a lot. Getting my emotions off my chest helps tremendously.
I know I don't have much more time with my buddy, even without the cancer. This fact alone weighs on my heart and mind.
Sometimes it feels like this simple life doesn't have enough distractions.
I cried on and off all day. Grieving about the inevitable.
My dog, Maggy, was diagnosed with cancer recently. She has a growth around her lymph node, which protrudes from her neck. and tongue that is inoperable.
We started chemotherapy a week ago yet yesterday I noticed her lump on her neck had grown, she had barely any energy to walk and she wouldn't yawn, meaning she was too uncomfortable to open her mouth.
Maggy is 14 and since my divorce 5 years ago she has grown to be my close buddy. She did almost everything with me. We hiked 3-4 days a week, we hung out at the park, we walked everyday and any vacation revolved around being able to take her. It's just her and I.
Needless to say this illness is stressful.
And yesterday hit me hard.
I have my Personal Core Values, which help me create a more simple life, to fall back on during good times and bad yet this day really took its toll on me. I also have my best friend and I journal a lot. Getting my emotions off my chest helps tremendously.
I know I don't have much more time with my buddy, even without the cancer. This fact alone weighs on my heart and mind.
Sometimes it feels like this simple life doesn't have enough distractions.
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