Ok, here it goes.
Once a month, usually for a day I get BAT-SHIT-CRAZY.
Really. This is no joke.
A couple of months ago I was so hurt, angry and hopeless I wished I would die the pain was so horrible in my head.
That's an extreme.
Typically I'm super grumpy and feel like I want to punch walls and people out. I don't, FYI.
What the heck is happening?
It started a couple of years ago, the VERY STRONG emotions right before my period. It took me a few months to understand this was something happening on a regular basis, each month, and during my monthly cycle.
I thought I was just an angry woman going crazy after my divorce and becoming an empty nester. Huge life changes like that can make your a little angry and anxious for sure.
Luckily I started seeing a pattern.
I took action. I thought, "How can I make this stop?" I hate what I think and sometimes do during this time of the month.
Digging around I found, well, IT'S UNSTOPPABLE. WTH!?
That's unacceptable but true so I guess I would just deal with it.
There are a bunch of ways to face it head on and treat the hellish PMS in midlife aka PERIMENOPAUSE. I'm not a doctor or someone qualified to tell you ways to handle the issues but I'll tell you what I do and where I've found info.
1. Face that b*tch. Acknowledge she's coming or here and just keep reminding myself that it will pass soon - literally tomorrow.
2. Do something I love that day. I'm fortunate to work remote and on my own so I take the day and disappear to a trail. That's my happy place and sometimes I can override the demon inside me.
Sometimes I'll sit in bed all day, have a yummy sandwich for lunch and binge watch tv.
3. Forgive myself for what I say and do. Generally, I stay away from people on this day so there's very few times I have to apologize for my bad behavior that day. But I do have some pretty harsh thoughts about dying sometimes. I NEVER FEEL THAT WAY OTHERWISE, I absolutely love my life. I also cry A LOT. And sometimes yell at my dog, she's always with me these days.
I feel so guilty and shameful the next day. I can't apologize to the dog but I can forgive myself and let the day and it's horribleness go. By letting it go I actually set up for better success during the next round.
Once a month, usually for a day I get BAT-SHIT-CRAZY.
Really. This is no joke.
A couple of months ago I was so hurt, angry and hopeless I wished I would die the pain was so horrible in my head.
That's an extreme.
Typically I'm super grumpy and feel like I want to punch walls and people out. I don't, FYI.
What the heck is happening?
It's my hormones.
It started a couple of years ago, the VERY STRONG emotions right before my period. It took me a few months to understand this was something happening on a regular basis, each month, and during my monthly cycle.
I thought I was just an angry woman going crazy after my divorce and becoming an empty nester. Huge life changes like that can make your a little angry and anxious for sure.
Luckily I started seeing a pattern.
I took action. I thought, "How can I make this stop?" I hate what I think and sometimes do during this time of the month.
Digging around I found, well, IT'S UNSTOPPABLE. WTH!?
That's unacceptable but true so I guess I would just deal with it.
There are a bunch of ways to face it head on and treat the hellish PMS in midlife aka PERIMENOPAUSE. I'm not a doctor or someone qualified to tell you ways to handle the issues but I'll tell you what I do and where I've found info.
What I Do to Deal with Perimenopause Anguish
1. Face that b*tch. Acknowledge she's coming or here and just keep reminding myself that it will pass soon - literally tomorrow.
2. Do something I love that day. I'm fortunate to work remote and on my own so I take the day and disappear to a trail. That's my happy place and sometimes I can override the demon inside me.
Sometimes I'll sit in bed all day, have a yummy sandwich for lunch and binge watch tv.
3. Forgive myself for what I say and do. Generally, I stay away from people on this day so there's very few times I have to apologize for my bad behavior that day. But I do have some pretty harsh thoughts about dying sometimes. I NEVER FEEL THAT WAY OTHERWISE, I absolutely love my life. I also cry A LOT. And sometimes yell at my dog, she's always with me these days.
I feel so guilty and shameful the next day. I can't apologize to the dog but I can forgive myself and let the day and it's horribleness go. By letting it go I actually set up for better success during the next round.
Info I've Found
WebMD on Perimenopause - Most likely you've already found this one when you search "perimenopause" but it's a good resource so I'll include it
Perimenopause Pages - Whole website about Perimenopause
How To Manage Your Emotions Through Menopause - Great natural ways to deal with the emotional rollercoaster of our hormones
Thanks for reading. Feel free to comment. :-)
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