Nervous, Scared, Excited and Happy About the Arizona Trail

Have you ever felt nervous, scared, excited, happy and down right crazy all at the same time?

I now have officially felt these all at the same time.

I've been prepping to do the Arizona Trail and I swear I feel all these emotions and more right now.

Questions and concerns have been racing through my head!

Will I be ready emotionally? Physically?

Will I have all my gear? Food? Water?

What if we can't get water on the trail? Or it snows? Or it's extremely hot?

What if I can't sleep? Get injured? Run into a mountain lion?

WHAT IF I NEVER DO THIS? Because my dumb-ass was too scared? Or Nervous?

I know myself, I'll talk me out of it. And I also know that once I plan things I feel way better and end up doing it.

SO I PREP FOR THE AZT

I've been hiking more (and I'm tired). Yesterday I did 7 miles with 12 pounds on my back. I need to do more so my body doesn't go into shock with 30 pounds hanging on to it.

I've been researching details I never thought existed like how to poop in the woods AND carry out your wipes in your backpack. And how to clean scum and cow spit out of the water you collect along the way.

I'm making sure bills are paid up through April. Luckily these days I have everything on auto pay except storage and they got a 3 month check.

I need to write a bunch of posts for my other blog, Start a Simple Life, so I don't look like I ditched it and Google spanks me for that. (I'll lose any little bit of search engine rank I have if I just stop.) Plus I have a few readers I would hate to let down if I stopped publishing.

REI became $1100 richer today and that's just maybe half of what I need to buy. At least next year I'll get a nice dividend, lol.

Planning for a backpacking trip takes more than I expected. I'm thankful for the plethora of YouTubers (list below) that share their wealth of knowledge. As well as the FB AZT 2020 group and the many blogs I'm learning from as well.

And I can't forget Janice. She's the reason I'm taking this trip. I e-met her in our Over Forty HIker Group and we've been emailing everyday since. Yup. I'm going to spend 2 months with someone I've never met until I get to Tucson. It's cool, she's in the same boat, lol.

Yep, I'm nervous, scared, excited, happy and down right crazy all at the same time. And I feel alive!

Amazeballs Backpackers I couldn't thank enough.

Thanks for reading! Share a time you felt alive!

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